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i went to see my psychologist today. she's worried because i don't have any flesh and blood friends. i haven't the foggiest ides how to make a friend. whenever people start talking, i clam up and work my way out of the group. it's just how i am now. she wants to see me every week now. i told her i couldn't afford it and she told me they were going to lower my co-pay. pretty cool of them. makes me wonder how bad she thinks i am to need to see me every week. i go to see my psychiatrist on the 12th to decide if my meds are working the way they should. i'm not thinking that they are, but i'm sick and tired of changing medication so i'm considering faking it. although i don't like the perpetual fog i am in. i have to concentrate so hard to do anything. i shouldn't be driving, but i have to get places. so far i've sideswiped a street sign, back into a tree, and almost ran a guy off the road because i was driving in his lane and didn't realize it for a second. anyone need a lift? ok, enough pissing and moaning for one day. i promise i won't post again until i have something happy to post about. so don't hold you're breath waiting! ciao for now.